Anxiety issues persist
Posted by jlhuff on October 5, 2009
I am sorry it has been awhile since I have posted. My anxiety is still really bad. i don’t sleep well and I am scared all the time. That makes it hard to come up with posts and to remember to come onto the site and post them. I can’t continue on this way, it is getting to be too much. I am even scared to go places, all though once I leave for the place I am a lot less anxious. That is not good at all, if I can’t go anywhere I won’t have a life. I don’t know where these things are coming from and I don’t understand why I feel this way. I have tried so many things and nothing seems to help. Part of why nothing seems to help is because I don’t seem to be able to take it in deep enough so that healing can take place. It seems like I don’t believe the information or something, that I can’t use it to it’s fullest potential and it doesn’t end up helping me. I don’t know what to do to allow this stuff to help me. I don’t know what will help me and I feel like I will never get better. I hate feeling this way and I want things to be able to help me, it just seems like nothing ever does. It doesn’t even seem like therapy is very helpful and I am too afraid of medications to be able to take them to help me. I am so lost. Anxiety is such a horrible condition, it makes even the good things feel like too much to handle, and it makes the things that could help it get better scary. Add depression to the mix and life is a constant struggle and things are twice as hard as they would be otherwise. I know that facing what scares me is what will be the most helpful thing in getting past my anxiety, but it is so hard and I haven’t been able to do it very much yet. I hope I figure out a way to get beyond all the suffering that my anxiety and depression are causing me, because I can’t keep living this way anymore.
misha said
I just read your post and my heart aches for you.
I have anxiety as well and it is so very hard – I don’t know if it helps you at all but know that you are NOT ALONE. You can find ways to get a handle on this. Somewhere, deep inside you, there is a strength. Bury down deep, take some deep breaths, try with all your might to remember any happy memories you have and write them down.
I have been given so much and varied advice while having anxiety, I understand too well how there are periods of feeling like it’s impossible to face the day, let alone the next hour. I too was petrified of medication but I have started on medication and it has helped me significantly. Medication can give your nervous system the break it needs to look at things more calmly so that the other treatments such as talk therapy, acupuncture, exercise, eating well, cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT), hypnotherapy, meditation.
I like to read, so I’ve read so many books on anxiety – some I’ve thought are rubbish, others have struck a chord. One in particular is written by Dr Claire Weekes – it is a wonderful book, she writes it as though she knows just how anxiety feels and perhaps it might be good for you? The book is called Complete Self Help for your Nerves.
I wish you peace, calm and happiness.